I'm back but...

I departed Texas on 7 Oct at 1030am, 2330hrs local time. It took me abt 24hrs to arrive at Changi Airport, having to transit over at Los Angeles and Narita(Japan).
I've decided to cut short my trip due to various reasons. Many guys would see it as; crazy fellow, are you out of your mind? Giving up your queen-sized bed, your garage, your BMW, oversea benefits, US$1 movie tickets, moreover leaving my Nike behind etc.

I descibed my trip to Texas as horendously disastrous. It has always been my dream to fly but sad to say that this reality became a history. Its not that i've violated any orders or offences but too many things has happened within a short span of 4mths. I've struggled for abt 6mths before making this decision not to continue fly which resulted in an early return.

One factor is the unresolved tension between my admin clerk and myself. She joined us in Dec '06. Due to her inconvenience of not having a driving license back in S'pore, she'd often approached few of us to hitch a ride to work, home, grocery-shopping or get dinner. Not too soon after she got her license but she'll still need someone to sit beside her while she drives. To cut the story short, as this continued on.. her "vehicle cmdr" reduced to just afew of us. She'd often ask few individuals out for meals, shopping etc and that includes me. Both of us were seen outside by our colleagues and the gossips start spreading from then on.

Another factor is the fact that some of our cars where serviced/repaired by this Thai mechanic near our base. There was this occasion where i brought and left my car there for service. The mechanic called me back few days later that my car was ready but my reply to him was that i can't collect the car yet within the next couple of days due work commitments and will call him back once i'm free. My car was left with him for quite sometime until news got to me that i don't want to take back my car, no money to pay for the repairs etc. It got so distorted to the point that i owe the mechanic US$15,000. This issue got to the management before i knew it. I explained to my supervisor who will investigate the source/cause of this rumour.

There would not be any training values for me to stay if i request not to fly again. I've did many considerations before laying down my decision. Some decisions are painful but its what i've got to do. I've cried over the issue of not being able to fly and not being able to bring Nike along with me. This feeling is really tremendous and even broke down on several occasions but God has never left me through it all, not even a single sec or when i'm sleeping.

Daryl.